Nothing can hurt a mother than to lose a child. It happened to me three years ago now and still the pain feels exactly the same when i lost her after she lived for twelve days. No one would think she would give up because she was a pretty strong girl. She was tough just like her mother. But i guess she is just too precious to stay with us. She was born premature and her lungs did not develop like it was supposed to. Plus the fact that i had gestational diabetes when i had her.
Until now, i am still blaming myself for my big mistake, it was a wrong decision that i went to Philippines. I should have just stayed here and she could have survived and delivered a full term baby. It really hurts me every time i see her pictures and videos, the pain gets freshen up every time i see her and even if i just think about her. Today is her birthday, she could've been three years old now. I am sure if she was around, she will be a one jolly and beautiful girl. To my little lady, happy birthday to you baby girl!!! You are missed by Daddy, Mommy and brothers.... I know you are happy where you at right now, you are our angel that watches over us and help to protect us from harm... We love you so much baby!
"Remember no one can make you feel inferior without your consent." —Eleanor Roosevelt—
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