I can still remember that someone whom is close to my heart told me that i should not touch her LANCÔME cosmetics because i can't afford to pay her if i drop and break it. I was only high school then, i was fascinated by her expensive things. I honestly didn't touch it, i just looked at it. Now that i can actually buy those kind of things for myself, i realized that i am not really crazy about expensive cosmetic brands. I can be just as happy having those cheap but good ones. That was indeed long time ago. I really thought then that cosmetics like what she had will cost my life if i messed with it.
And that someone is now ashamed of me for some reason. I reminded her about what she told me then. But really, i did not hold grudge towards her. She probably feeling the guilt now that she remembered all what she told me, not just her cosmetics though, also her jewelries. My intention then was to praise her that she must be somebody for having those expensive things, but i guess it was a mistake of me thinking like what i thought she is just because of material things she had then. She must have misunderstood what i meant, instead she told me that i better not lay my fingers on her things because i have no way to pay for it if i lose or break her stuff.
Really, you cannot tell the person's fate. She probably did not think that i would become a better person and will be where i am at now. She must be ashamed of me because of what life she has right now compared to mine. But i don't really look at her like how she looked at me then. I still love her and still think of her like i used to when i was little girl. She's have been part of my life and no one or nothing can ever change that. That's why i don't really judge people because we can't really tell their fate, they might be way above you in the future, they'll look down at you and will tell you, "HEY! LOOK AT ME NOW, I AM ABOVE YOU! YOU USED TO TELL ME THAT I AM NOBODY, BUT NOW I AM SOMEBODY, WHAT CAN YOU SAY?". In fact, whoever i meet that thinks i am somebody (it's probably because i now live here in the milk and honey land), i always tell them that it's just all about ambition and dreams, if you strive for it then you can have it in your hands.